Doing Drugs #2
August 10, 2007 | 6:31 pmSpoiler: Modafinil, if you had followed the Wikipedia link I had given you, is a safe drug. As safe as Aspirin, you could say, except that I haven’t taken any Aspirin yet. The whole point of this accidental two part series is to try to say that drugs needn’t be harmful to be addictive. It might seem obvious to you, yet it wasn’t to me until this happened.
Another Spoiler which isn’t really a spoiler: Incase you are wondering, I did have Dad’s permission from the second dose onwards. I took a total of 3 doses.
So, to keep it short, what really happened was that though I did get an extra 8 hours of preparation, it didn’t help me at all. Besides the fact that it takes more than 8 hours to get prepared for an exam (lesson 1), I found out that inorder to actually stay fully awake the next day, I would have to continue to take Modafinil. Otherwise, I’d be so sleepy a badger can build a dam over me (don’t ask me how).
So, if I take Modafinil to stay awake, and want to stay awake the next day, the only option is to take Modafinil again the next day. An infinite loop, breaking out of which is hard. This infinite loop, is called Addiction. I never felt that before the 3rd day, when I felt I needed another dose of Modafinil. At this point, however, Rob’s timely advice in an IM conversation a week before proved to be damn useful, and I recognized the addiction when I felt I needed to be on Modafinil to be at my best. It’s a dangerous thing, and thanks (again!) to Rob for helping me get out of it before I get stuck in that infinite loop.
So, the point I was trying to get across is, all addictive substances are not narcotic, but they sure are dangerous!
P.S. Don’t I look like a fool?
[...] Update: Part II here. [...]
YuviSense: Codin Kid » Doing Drugs #1 | August 10, 2007 | 6:31 pm[…] Update: Part II here. […]
Yuvi You don't want to say things on the internet which
Anand Sankaran | August 10, 2007 | 10:30 pmYuvi
You don’t want to say things on the internet which might haunt you later in life
anand
Thanks for the concern, Anand. Lots of people keep saying
yuvipanda | August 11, 2007 | 2:17 amThanks for the concern, Anand. Lots of people keep saying this. But, isn’t this post just plain harmless? I haven’t done anything wrong, have I?
I can't really believe this happened!
Sisir Koppaka | August 11, 2007 | 2:51 amI can’t really believe this happened!
@Sisir: Me too! ;) So now that I know what IS
yuvipanda | August 11, 2007 | 3:12 am@Sisir: Me too!
So now that I know what IS addiction, it means I can’t get into it and can stop others from getting into it.
"So, if I take Modafinil to stay awake, and want
Rory | August 26, 2007 | 4:43 am“So, if I take Modafinil to stay awake, and want to stay awake the next day, the only option is to take Modafinil again the next day. An infinite loop, breaking out of which is hard.”
That’s *exactly right*.
The major drug companies decide for themselves how to define “addictive” when and where they want.
If you’re stuck in the cycle you talked about, it doesn’t matter if the drug isn’t physically addictive; it’s still got you.
As for whether you should post this stuff - I wouldn’t worry. If anything, your experiment is a warning against taking the quick and easy way to greater productivity.
It catches up eventually (*trust me*), and other people need to know that.
“P.S. Don’t I look like a fool?”
A fool would have kept taking it after realizing its dangerous potential.
I was falling asleep at work, throwing up constantly, and was unable to complete even simple tasks for *seven months*. That’s what morphine rehab is like.
And *that’s* for a fool.
What you did, simply, was smart.
Again, Rory, Thanks! From somewhere out in the wasted lands
yuvipanda | September 26, 2007 | 5:17 pmAgain, Rory, Thanks! From somewhere out in the wasted lands of Slovenia, a thought entered my mind of getting this thing again while I was slogging for my Chemistry exam. And, your comment bludgeoned that thought out. Thanks, yo!